Sunday, April 30, 2006

Mr. Businessman

i just wanna scream out i'm getting tired of what i do. yeah, i edit videos and burn cds for a price but its kinda hard if it crosses along with your social life. what i mean is that when most of your friends needs your services. some brings me down to lower my prices and if i don't, they get angry. can those kind be really my friends? or should i really cut the price off because we're friends? i'm confused since i began editing 4 years ago and i still am, kind of.

i don't know where to side but my bro and mom kept telling me to ignore those kind of people and stick to my principles. if they really are my friends, then they should respect what i am and what i do and that is where i am comfortable. i'm happy about those who come to me and never complain, we respect each other like what mature people do. i give you what you want and you give me what i need. that's how simple business transaction is. nothing personal.

i've surpassed my hundredth work so i guess i'm going in the right way, hopefully. i just gotta train myself to stand in what i believe in and not let the outside forces meddle with my substance. for all those selfish ignorant people who just think of themselves, f*ck the hell off! XD
Chad || 10:48 PM

A Dream I Wished No More

another weird dream had me. of all the regrets i had i was given by this beautiful woman a chance to go back through time to undo what has already been. it wasn't so like a dream. it seemed so real. everything and everyone was in perfect place, in the way they should be. she gave me three stone vials that would take me back in present time after they all break at some point. the next thing i knew it was two years back, when i was part of st. benedict in marist. i couldn't remember much of what happened but there i was, talking to my schoolmates and teachers as i used to but at the back of my head i felt something wasn't right. i looked at those who we're talking to me with open smiles and i couldn't stomach that i already know what was gonna happen in the next two years, poor them. and poor me too, repeating everything all over again for 2 years? that's crazy.

in the dream, days passed by with me feeling so alone 'cause of the fact that i was the only one with perfect consciousness of the future. i did some different things that i didn't do before but the outcome was the same. the first stone vial broke. the daily routine of my life of two years ago went on. i wanted to go back and believe that nothing like this ever happened. the second vial broke. i couldn't wait any longer so i searched for the beautiful woman. i didn't notice it but she was there at marist. she was there all along, watching me. i told her to take me back. "you've still got one more thing to learn." she said. days passed again and there! the third vial broke.

next i woke up for real as the sun shone upon my lovely face. hmm...what's the lesson here? well, maybe everything is meant to be the way there are? and fallacies are part of it. or maybe take that chance to correct yourself in the upcoming problems of your life, i think? damn its so hard to interpret dreams. the feeling is there when you're dreaming but it isn't there anymore when you wake up. strange. i'm just happy that i have the wrongs i had, so that i won't be surprised anymore the next time they come.
Chad || 9:55 PM

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Crazy Americans and Patriotism

i was at masinag, on my way to our practice at james' house when the stop lights turned red. there were two family sedans in front of us and a civic at our left. it was only then i noticed these vehicles when some american teens who were holding brushes came bursting out of one sedan and did some kind of cleaning job on the car behind theirs, which was the civic. they kept brushing the car on all sides until the stop lights started changing again, and they came back. remember that we're in the highway that time! oh those crazy americans and their crazy games. then something made me wonder...do most of them who migrated here like the vicinity of our country more than in their own? and if they do, what makes them do so? with those high-class structures, quiality food and liquor and advanced technology, i'm pretty sure most would choose that over what we have here.

but i'm not saying the upper world is to die for and ours isn't, i'm just looking things at a practical perspective. or rather, i just don't like what has become of the mass...what they have been, the corrupt, the close minded, the selfish and the mentally blind. if we're gonna be successful then we're gonna have to side with what has already been agreed upon by the people, the law and the higher authorities of the government. we can't turn back now and destroy what has already been built to build a new one with better eyes. it's kinda stupid unless its clear we're going backwards, but we're not. vote for pro-progress. go philippines!
Chad || 7:40 PM

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Morgan Dyes

we just started a new band named morgan dyes.



james, ged, jerome, ken, me and joal compelled it to be with a different perspective as to earn money through our performance, not like before. our first target is at the riverboat of riverbanks and we're gonna audition next week! we're also gonna switch genre from emo-rock to somewhat oldies and alternative. hope this works out. happy birthday jerome!

but delay will always be delay as morgan dyes will always be what it is. nothing is affected nor cross-pollinated. XD
Chad || 11:10 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Frydom Ber

all this time since high school we've been wanting to play at freedom bar. and thanks to bitong and his friends delay had a chance to perform there for the first time along with carakoa! it also felt great that we played with the bands of the night the maple and ten thousand pogi points. some other bands just wreaked. next stop, mayrics!

Chad || 2:26 AM