Friday, February 24, 2006

For The Work Force

i've been going crazy with all the projects, requirements and other school works now. there seems to be no end. when one shows up, another piles it up to be piled by yet another. man...i slept so late last nightthat i had my brain for soup the next morning. i was planning on being absent, of all the lazy things. but then again, i have one too many absences already. so i worked myself up. while eating breakfast, i heard on the radio that all classes on metro manila will be suspended. i didn't care at all 'cause when i heard manila, i thought of intramuros or something like that. stupid! haha it was only then when my teacher texted me about it. woohoo! thanks to gloria and those who dared threaten the government. hope everything turns out okay though.
Chad || 11:35 AM

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Starbuko Suicide

for the past five days my parter in making the thesis and i had our social lives come active. you can call it procrastinating actually, 'cause most of the guys in our class are already doing the conclusion while we got stuck up at the intro section! we did the thesis writing in the starbucks nearest to us. conio?! well that comment is yet to be determined. what we bought is the smallest brewed coffee. haha. we did it everyday 'til 11pm! but i liked it though. the day i hated most was valentine's day, too many people and too much traffic. at least we had a decent, quiet and relaxing place to work to, considering that our topic was so hard. we sided with pro-suicide and we'll have to defend it! i really hope things would go well in the defense. well, good luck to us.
Chad || 2:56 AM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

020406

the next morning, feb. 4, my real birthday. i saw my friends awake already and we just spent the time talking while we waited for the others to wake up. i did some cleaning too 'cause i didn't want my dad getting angry on my day. everyone helped me clean and we went to masinag for quek-quek breakfast! i really didn't know if the party part 2 was sure, dad might go ballistic. but when i got home, sis was already cooking and i asked dad if i can invite more friends. i was great that its okay!



so like i texted the others. two friends came early to help us prepare food, so did regi and ram. after taking a bath my guests arrived. jerome led the prayer and then we ate of course. my group was in the main table in the house and my sister's group was in the terrace. we had some laughs and past reminisces.



ac had to leave soon so four of us accompanied her home. me, blue, gutchi and joal stayed. while waiting, the three just played dota and i just sat with my sister's friends and took some shots. finally they were back! we began the session and slowly fell into oblivion! whaha. we played some songs, much of which were krayola's old songs and yfc songs. then jerome called everyone's attention. i couldn't remember what happened next but last thing i remember each one of 'em were telling something about me...and that jerome chanted this long prayer thanking god and everyone, i was like whoa...my sis told me they were kinda scared and abrupted about it but we didn't care...hehe.



while drinking all of us noticed that a band could be formed by everyone around the table! miki and i would be on guitars, blue on bass, joal on keyboards and synth, jerome on drums and gail on vocals! sakto. and that the name would be "ben's birthday!" haha. thats nice, a combination from all the bands drawn into one! kinda like cambio if you may. or maybe the alcohols just gotten in out heads.



we did some challenge, empoy and black label with no chaser! then gail wanted some red horse which we passed around. we laughed and tripped...man it was so much fun...i really was touched when gail took shots in favor for my bday! fyi she stopped already. then came a time where gail had to go home so jerome, miki and joal took her home. then blue and i sat with the others and joined in the vodka circulation again. by the time jerome and joal arrived, my brain was already half-way to shutting down...



i couldn't remember much then but what i remember is that i sat on the sofa with arjel and sheila, then said to my friends that i'll just lie down for a while and thats it...also when my sis woke me up to go to my room and noticed jerome and joal already fled...sorry guys...then i took blue to where he'll sleep. next thing my eyes saw was the morning sun. man this weekend was the best.
Chad || 8:49 PM

Saturday, February 04, 2006

020306

feb 3. i had my party here in my crib, loaded with lots of food and raining booze! i wanted this party to be one hell of a night 'cause this was already our last year in marist. i thought about the years to come and it looked like we won't be able to party like this anymore, so what the hell?! we would be in different schools already, different courses, different schedules and different lives.



just hours before the party, ken and jed went to my house already to help me and my sis with the cooking and preparations (we needed help badly 'cause my mom wasn't there to manage everything). then others came one by one, until my crib was jampacked with people! they were about thirty. including my beloved teachers, maal and ria plus neighbor friends dany, krisha and avick, and my sisters bf, regi.



during the party i couldn't put my head together 'cause it almost broke trying to entertain everyone. one will call me from outside, then someone will want to go to the cr, then my cell phone will ring, then someone will text me asking where my house is, then my landline will ring, my sis will call me, new guests will arrive, man! i didn't know is was gonna be that hard. then regi said to me "easy ka lang choy. this is your party, you should be having fun! it's your day, just go with the flow and let go of the problems." then suddenly i felt that heavy thing on my back disappear and i was relieved.



all of delay came, it's just that jenzi and james had to leave early. man i thought james wasn't serious of stopping his drinking but he is! he never took a shot from emperor even once that night. maybe his experience the last time gave him a phobia on alcoholic drinks, at least thats what he said...take a look at his pic in my previous entry "sabogish" whaha!



almost everyone felt soberness that night, but at least no one got drunk and stabbed someone with an icepick. we kept drinking until there were only about 15 of us, we consumed 6 long necks and 2 cases of red horse! me i didn't kept up with the circulation, i might have gotten really drunk! and then no one will clean the house and take charge no more.



the night was wild. we went on trippin' so ren, jude and marko stripped their clothes off (certainly not their underwear) in front of the camera! plus after a while we went outside the house to take a break from the drinking and we went on trippin again, we lied down the rocky cement that is the center road of my village and had this pic! one said we kinda looked like construction workers that got salvaged! haha.



i presumed about only 5 will sleep at my house but my calculations were dead wrong. 13 people spent the night here! so my sala was like a prison cell filled with half-naked people sleeping on top of one another. haha. man this was one hell of a night. thanks to everyone!
Chad || 3:36 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Degradation

the hell has happened? my grades are all screwed up...some of my academics have gotten higher but i got an NI for a conduct...i was so confident that i was going to get high grades this quarter whilst doing the band thingy at school and outside, parties and hang-outs plus all that gimmicking but i was wrong. i felt my whole world fall apart knowing that everything i believed i was doing to be right wasn't. i promised my mom, dad and myself that i'll do better if i'm granted freedom to everything. no curfew and no questions asked when going out. i took advantage of it and gone in at a point where i couldn't get back anymore. i guess i'll be given a certain kind of punishment for this.

i got an NI 'cause my csep (teaching kids at public schools) moderator thought i was cutting class when there was attendance checking (it wasn't my duty then, but my attendance was still needed). i forgot all about csep 'cause my mind was concentrated on our concert. there was a lot of heavy work to be done. now its too late. and this is whats irritating: my moderator said i wouldn't have gotten an NI if i submitted her a letter and all this time she was waiting for me to give her one! dammit i don't remember her telling me that. its so frickin unfair! but theres still hope. the principal told me i can change my grade if i do the correct procedures before the last quarter ends. at least theres some considerations.

at least i've learned something...i believed i could handle all the work and pressure i got myself into and the problem was that i believed in myself too much. i won't let my extra-curricular activities interfere with school thingys anymore. even though i have a reason for having an NI, what i've done is still a mistake and whats done is done. i was careless and the sharks are gonna devour me for that. i guess our last gig will be at the variety show and then we'll keep it low until after the last quarterly exam. haha its weird, i'm beginning to be over serious about this. haha...
Chad || 3:49 AM