Sunday, July 09, 2006

Change is Permanence.

its been a few weeks since classes started. its great. things have been different since then. im on a new life agenda now. our class have quite a few differences but we blend in as how great minds think alike. cool huh? they're awesome. as for now im leaving my current life disposition and start a new one. who knows, it might be better. drinks, smokes, parties, night-outs, punkin', cruisin' and complications are expected. hell, i might as well just fuck around while i still can in this chapter of my life since everyone's going to. i know we all will. haha.

by the way, i won't be posting here anymore. go to my multiply. i'll write there.
chad || 3:14 AM

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Multiply!

i just had my multiply account upgraded. its up and running now! check it out here. i've put up some pics and songs already. leave a comment if you're gonna visit aight?! thanks!
chad || 9:21 AM

Monday, May 29, 2006

Embrace Thy Soul Renewed

jerome persuaded me to try out joining yfc and i did. our camp lasted until yesterday. it was much fun, i met new friends and i had a chance to talk to myself again after for so long. at first i was surprised how the people there worshipped god, they were so in touch with their religion...pretty much unlike me. i'm not saying the camp didn't have any effect on me or whatsoever, actually it did. i reminisced my childhood self being 100% pure and missed it pretty much. i thought i wanted that feeling again...to believe into something impossible and have my life be given to someone who will surely take care of it. but i couldn't go back to that disposition even if i wanted to. theres just so much in my head that contradict each thought. i need to think.



anyway, those 3 days were surely packed with fun. on the first day, introduction for each was held. there i met the nice people of yfc as well as my fellow new members. we also learned new songs. on the second day the same things were done. talks, interactions and games. only difference is that we had confession, baptism and the entertainment night. on the third day we had the mass, played the skit and gotten on with the parent-child ceremony thingy.



i was surprised my mom and sis came 'cause i didn't expect them to, also i didn't know that they were notified without telling us. before the mass we played the skit bea and i arranged but it didn't go through that well. but i guess at least we've gotten through it together, in front of our parents! hehe. yfc was fun. i guess i'll try to be active every now and then even though i'm kinda far from the place. i know its gonna do me somewhat good.
chad || 11:07 AM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Updates

just edited some of my previous posts to be of a much more interesting read. i also posted pics in my grad and tagaytay entry. take a look-see! =)
chad || 10:43 AM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Last Freedom Gigs

freedom bar, anonas is officially gonna close this may 31 due to its contract duration for 5 years only. its really great we've had a chance to play there and in its last days too. this may 16 we'll be playing some of our new compos with kikomachine and i'm not pretty sure about the upcoming gigs after but we're all out on freedom bar! =)

chad || 12:23 AM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Youtube!

my youtube videos are now up and running! the initial videos i've put up are from some gigs we've recorded like that of the equilibrium concert and at freedom bar. check 'em out! thanks.

chad || 12:29 AM

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Mr. Businessman

i just wanna scream out i'm getting tired of what i do. yeah, i edit videos and burn cds for a price but its kinda hard if it crosses along with your social life. what i mean is that when most of your friends needs your services. some brings me down to lower my prices and if i don't, they get angry. can those kind be really my friends? or should i really cut the price off because we're friends? i'm confused since i began editing 4 years ago and i still am, kind of.

i don't know where to side but my bro and mom kept telling me to ignore those kind of people and stick to my principles. if they really are my friends, then they should respect what i am and what i do and that is where i am comfortable. i'm happy about those who come to me and never complain, we respect each other like what mature people do. i give you what you want and you give me what i need. that's how simple business transaction is. nothing personal.

i've surpassed my hundredth work so i guess i'm going in the right way, hopefully. i just gotta train myself to stand in what i believe in and not let the outside forces meddle with my substance. for all those selfish ignorant people who just think of themselves, f*ck the hell off! XD
chad || 10:48 PM

A Dream I Wished No More

another weird dream had me. of all the regrets i had i was given by this beautiful woman a chance to go back through time to undo what has already been. it wasn't so like a dream. it seemed so real. everything and everyone was in perfect place, in the way they should be. she gave me three stone vials that would take me back in present time after they all break at some point. the next thing i knew it was two years back, when i was part of st. benedict in marist. i couldn't remember much of what happened but there i was, talking to my schoolmates and teachers as i used to but at the back of my head i felt something wasn't right. i looked at those who we're talking to me with open smiles and i couldn't stomach that i already know what was gonna happen in the next two years, poor them. and poor me too, repeating everything all over again for 2 years? that's crazy.

in the dream, days passed by with me feeling so alone 'cause of the fact that i was the only one with perfect consciousness of the future. i did some different things that i didn't do before but the outcome was the same. the first stone vial broke. the daily routine of my life of two years ago went on. i wanted to go back and believe that nothing like this ever happened. the second vial broke. i couldn't wait any longer so i searched for the beautiful woman. i didn't notice it but she was there at marist. she was there all along, watching me. i told her to take me back. "you've still got one more thing to learn." she said. days passed again and there! the third vial broke.

next i woke up for real as the sun shone upon my lovely face. hmm...what's the lesson here? well, maybe everything is meant to be the way there are? and fallacies are part of it. or maybe take that chance to correct yourself in the upcoming problems of your life, i think? damn its so hard to interpret dreams. the feeling is there when you're dreaming but it isn't there anymore when you wake up. strange. i'm just happy that i have the wrongs i had, so that i won't be surprised anymore the next time they come.
chad || 9:55 PM

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Crazy Americans and Patriotism

i was at masinag, on my way to our practice at james' house when the stop lights turned red. there were two family sedans in front of us and a civic at our left. it was only then i noticed these vehicles when some american teens who were holding brushes came bursting out of one sedan and did some kind of cleaning job on the car behind theirs, which was the civic. they kept brushing the car on all sides until the stop lights started changing again, and they came back. remember that we're in the highway that time! oh those crazy americans and their crazy games. then something made me wonder...do most of them who migrated here like the vicinity of our country more than in their own? and if they do, what makes them do so? with those high-class structures, quiality food and liquor and advanced technology, i'm pretty sure most would choose that over what we have here.

but i'm not saying the upper world is to die for and ours isn't, i'm just looking things at a practical perspective. or rather, i just don't like what has become of the mass...what they have been, the corrupt, the close minded, the selfish and the mentally blind. if we're gonna be successful then we're gonna have to side with what has already been agreed upon by the people, the law and the higher authorities of the government. we can't turn back now and destroy what has already been built to build a new one with better eyes. it's kinda stupid unless its clear we're going backwards, but we're not. vote for pro-progress. go philippines!
chad || 7:40 PM

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Morgan Dyes

we just started a new band named morgan dyes.



james, ged, jerome, ken, me and joal compelled it to be with a different perspective as to earn money through our performance, not like before. our first target is at the riverboat of riverbanks and we're gonna audition next week! we're also gonna switch genre from emo-rock to somewhat oldies and alternative. hope this works out. happy birthday jerome!

but delay will always be delay as morgan dyes will always be what it is. nothing is affected nor cross-pollinated. XD
chad || 11:10 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Frydom Ber

all this time since high school we've been wanting to play at freedom bar. and thanks to bitong and his friends delay had a chance to perform there for the first time along with carakoa! it also felt great that we played with the bands of the night the maple and ten thousand pogi points. some other bands just wreaked. next stop, mayrics!

chad || 2:26 AM

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Lukan's Last Moment

12 am from tagaytay, i woke up with a weird feeling in my tummy and threw up. this went on per hour in the succeeding three hours so i couldn't sleep. thoughts came in my mind that i won't be able to go to our junior section's outing which i've lead. my body was failing me.

i was friggin' sick.

i waited until my mom woke up and told her about it and we went to a hospital for check up. my guesses were right. my body accumulated an infection due to my cough, dehydration, booze intake and not eating well which may have lead to a premature ulcer. the doc gave me four distasteful tablets to be taken everyday until i'm fully well. but what i liked about it is that i have to drink lots of gatorade! yeah, happy moments. but i couldn't drink booze, coffee, tea, softdrinks nor eat spicy foods.

at last i was home. i've slept for awhile and woke up the time aldrin called me. he said to go there immediately and bring some needed stuff and that ma'am maal was on her way already. oh yeah, there sure needed it alright. cigarettes. my 100 bucks got washed up 'cause of 'em. and being a good boy i didn't take some no matter how hard they tempted me. i just had a couple of beer bottles. nah! just 2 small glass shots and thats all. hehe. i couldn't swim either which kept me away from the pool 'cause everyone just had that intention of getting me wet. man. what a night.

i had my brother fetch me as well with 4 lukers so our small car wasn't very spacious then. maal and i had to sit on the front seat together (yipee!). too bad we left already when the real party started. i wasn't there when the others boozed off and experienced what was never experienced before by many of our age. haha. crazy naughty bastards. anyway, at least i'm okay now, i think. just gonna keep up with eating, drinking and sleeping most of the time until my body recharges. then back to booze and puff intake! whaha. ciao!
chad || 10:52 PM

Monday, March 27, 2006

Tagay-tay

once again john arranged an outing for all of us in his rest house in tagaytay. the last time was 2 years ago i think? anyway, this time there were twelve of us and the trip would last for only two days and a night, again. well it was supposed to be three days and two nights but most parents didn't approve of it. we had loads of fun...not to mention that there were no adults to limit our actions! we were free men, for the time being. darren and albert brought their ps2s so we played and cracked each other's skulls off in tekken, bloody roar, soul caliber and such. after game time we went to the park in the sky and witnessed the great views and took some goofy pictures.



next stop, the picnic grove! we ventured through the long and bumpy road with laughs and trips. it eventually lead us to another great view. the taal view i mean, where the clouds strife with the cold damp air to create that scenery where the mist engulfs everything, leaving only a slight blurry view of whats ahead. there was also this time where we played a game of balance in the playground. there were six see-saws in which each two sat on one and tried to balance it without the feet touching the ground. albert and i won! the said prize was ice cream, which we didn't get! grr.



night came and we banged on the booze we bought at 7-11. we played cards, listened to music, watched movies and talked about almost everything. we watched euro trip, by the way. it was a total laugh trip. we continued the boozin' on the rooftop where everyone let their anguish and frustrations out. yeah, booze loosens the tongue but i didn't think it would go so intense like what it did to three of us. we ended the night with scary ghost stories while playing fatal frame 2. i was the one playing and when i passed the controller for another to play, everyone was fast asleep. i did the same too, in that bed where six of us slept. ouch.



the next morning we just enjoyed the day until we went home at about 5pm. we stopped by rp at about 8 something to eat and then went home, tired.
chad || 8:44 AM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

High School Grad

finally, after 11 years of studying at marist i have graduated! this school has surely shaped me to somewhat what i have wanted to become and also made me realize what i should become in the nearing future. so many friends, companions and such i have supported who also did the same to me made me confident in the next phase of every high school graduate's goal: college.



the ceremony was very memorable. we weren't serious and all but we knew how valuable and important it was to us. we laughed, talked and shouted like we weren't given instructions to follow. nonetheless the faculty and staff didn't mind. our batch was the very first, of all the decades of grad ceremonies that marist ever had, to receive our diploma in an enclosed hard jacket. its something to be really proud of. at the end of the exercise, everyone joined in the moshpit and slammed with everyone else even though all wore sweaty barongs and newly polished leather shoes. every teacher greeted us with congraulations and teary goodbyes. then we bid farewell to our batchmates with hugs, shakes, and picture takings. the last song just sucked. it was narda! hell it should have been wishful thinking of john petrucci! frickin' mr. eching.



i'm really gonna miss high school life, as i learned how to be an asshole in those times. but college sure is promising to be worse! i'm excited at the same time nervous and scared but most of all, i'm curious. i guess most of us are. the only thing we can do is hope for the best in the upcoming years. good luck graduates!
chad || 10:28 PM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Ours Forever

people kept asking me to send our grad song to them. it was just now when i realized i should have uploaded it in my blog so that people can get an easy hands on! anyway, just click on play if you want to listen or right click and then copy the url on properties to download. lyrics are just right below.

ours forever
marista batch '06 grad song
composed by ken, joal and chad


looking through what was before, a dire glass of what we're for. we've had our ups and downs. and all of the friends that we have made, im sure we'll never seperate, the countless pains and joys. bring back our frozen memories and fly away. things will never be the same as it takes our time away. we go on, we remember everything will be forever. as we move on to a better place, new friends we will create. still nothing will ever replace everything that we have made.
chad || 9:17 PM

Friday, March 24, 2006

Recognition

i finally got it! the certificate of recognition in the performing arts. only four of us was awarded with it from the whole cluster and it happened to be me, ep, ged and james. delay should feel so proud considering all four are from the band. heres the scan:



i was supposed to get this last march 17 but i wasn't able to attend the recognition day because dany invited me first to play with coalesce in their sophomore night at vale verde 4, which was fun. i met new friends and old ones but unfortunately i wasn't able to join them in tiendesitas, i had to go early. anyway, i feel really great about receiving this award. this is proof that music really is one of the things we love getting into. lets keep rockin!

chad || 9:33 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Last Days

just a few more days to go and we would have graduated from marist already. i just noticed how time could seem to have passed by so fast. anyway, this week was one of the busiest i've had although we should all be sitting back and relaxing by now. i had to finish that yearbook video a pre-school from town & country paid me to do (thanks john! i'll have to add that to my resume in the future) and i also had to finish typing my part for our yearbook committee which contained 40 pages that are the biographies of the students of section slr! my fingers almost snapped from typing that time.

graduation practices are okay except for the fact that it's so damn boring. you could just imagine in these two weeks of rehearsals all we'd do is sing the songs and sing them over and over again until most get them right. in the processional we'd stand and wait for me and my partner's turn to walk towards our seat and it is only then we can sit down when the last pair gets to their seats which is pair number one hundred-something. grr. what i like about it is that everyone gets to sing the graduation song we composed. oh i feel so proud.

good thing practices last for only half a day. after that we'd go to james's house and hang out for the rest of the day. we'd play playstation and computer games to beat the hell out of each other, watch some stuff and of course food tripping as nothing can beat the caseroles of our moms! yeah, these are the times...
chad || 12:30 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

The Exams

finals na bukas! the very last exams in our whole high school years...whoohoo! haha nakakatuwa lang. at school earlier at about lunch time, we watched the farewell video i made for smc and i was happy that everyone was happy about it. i gave myself the liberty of selling them a copy for a small price. after all, i didn't cost the edit for anything. god i'm gonna miss high school...all my friends, bandmates, acquaintances, barkada, mga kainuman, kasama sa bisyo (sorry if its a negative thing for you and i'm not saying it's positive), the teachers, the food maski sawang sawa nako kase araw-araw pare-parehas na lang! pati naren siguro yung mga taong hindi ko kasundo o kung ano man, basta everythings all part of it 'coz it wouldn't be what it is if one part is missing. anyway, sige na...aral muna ako! haha!
chad || 4:10 AM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Legacy

at first i really wasn't planning to go to the legacy until nica invited me and at the same time i knew that friends of mine were also coming. i went with joal and anjo and when we arrived we got with dany, krisha, her lil' sis, john, albert and dan. we tripped around and watched the bands. there was hale, itchyworms, other amateur bands and assumption's own.



finally there was bamboo. i was really surprised about how they performed. they were really awesome! stage performance to the max. now i know what makes bamboo what he is. dan and i most of the time sang and waved our hands the whole bamboo performance though it rained. i got home contented. 250 php for the ticket was kind of worth it. go bamboo!
chad || 9:33 AM

Friday, March 03, 2006

UP Strolling

last thursday i went to up diliman to check if i passed the upcat. i didn't care if i'll fail or pass though, i was just really bored at home. well, not really. i was nervous! 'cause the results will determine what school i'll be in for the next coming years...i rode a jeep from masinag and an unsuspecting incident happened. for most people when they ride a jeepney they would sit where there's more space right? thats what i did, i sit beside an old man who was farthest from the entrance. little did i know that he was somewhat weird and that he carried a real gun in his right hand while his left one carrying vegetables was covering it. i only knew this after the driver said "alam kong may dala ka. san mo balak pumunta tatang? naiilang na mga pasahero ko sayo!" the man replied with grunts and not-so-decent words and then he looked at every one of us with a keen eye. the driver and the man continued arguing. good thing we were at marcos highway so the driver just told the military on the checkpoint about it and they took him away.

i met up with a childhood friend, nola, at ministop so we'll go there together. we got lost in a while but after some time we found the palma hall and looked for the results. we scanned the papers only to find out we didn't pass. bummer. i should have known...well, i had a strong feeling i wouldn't pass but my hardheadedness kept me hoping. we just went to places after and then went home. oh well.

actually i still don't know what school i really like if i was to choose between ust and up. yeah, i like up for it's high standards, popularity and low tuition fees but there's something special about ust. people there aren't that liberated, not like some of those in up who waged war to the government foolishly and believed that they are fighting for their rights. but anyway, i'm not very much into politics as long as it's pro-progress. ust also isn't that big plus the fact that i have many friends already studying there, not to mention my sister and her barkada. should i audition for up's talent test? nahh...i guess i'll take business in ust instead.
chad || 10:52 PM

Friday, February 24, 2006

For The Work Force

i've been going crazy with all the projects, requirements and other school works now. there seems to be no end. when one shows up, another piles it up to be piled by yet another. man...i slept so late last nightthat i had my brain for soup the next morning. i was planning on being absent, of all the lazy things. but then again, i have one too many absences already. so i worked myself up. while eating breakfast, i heard on the radio that all classes on metro manila will be suspended. i didn't care at all 'cause when i heard manila, i thought of intramuros or something like that. stupid! haha it was only then when my teacher texted me about it. woohoo! thanks to gloria and those who dared threaten the government. hope everything turns out okay though.
chad || 11:35 AM

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Starbuko Suicide

for the past five days my parter in making the thesis and i had our social lives come active. you can call it procrastinating actually, 'cause most of the guys in our class are already doing the conclusion while we got stuck up at the intro section! we did the thesis writing in the starbucks nearest to us. conio?! well that comment is yet to be determined. what we bought is the smallest brewed coffee. haha. we did it everyday 'til 11pm! but i liked it though. the day i hated most was valentine's day, too many people and too much traffic. at least we had a decent, quiet and relaxing place to work to, considering that our topic was so hard. we sided with pro-suicide and we'll have to defend it! i really hope things would go well in the defense. well, good luck to us.
chad || 2:56 AM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

020406

the next morning, feb. 4, my real birthday. i saw my friends awake already and we just spent the time talking while we waited for the others to wake up. i did some cleaning too 'cause i didn't want my dad getting angry on my day. everyone helped me clean and we went to masinag for quek-quek breakfast! i really didn't know if the party part 2 was sure, dad might go ballistic. but when i got home, sis was already cooking and i asked dad if i can invite more friends. i was great that its okay!



so like i texted the others. two friends came early to help us prepare food, so did regi and ram. after taking a bath my guests arrived. jerome led the prayer and then we ate of course. my group was in the main table in the house and my sister's group was in the terrace. we had some laughs and past reminisces.



ac had to leave soon so four of us accompanied her home. me, blue, gutchi and joal stayed. while waiting, the three just played dota and i just sat with my sister's friends and took some shots. finally they were back! we began the session and slowly fell into oblivion! whaha. we played some songs, much of which were krayola's old songs and yfc songs. then jerome called everyone's attention. i couldn't remember what happened next but last thing i remember each one of 'em were telling something about me...and that jerome chanted this long prayer thanking god and everyone, i was like whoa...my sis told me they were kinda scared and abrupted about it but we didn't care...hehe.



while drinking all of us noticed that a band could be formed by everyone around the table! miki and i would be on guitars, blue on bass, joal on keyboards and synth, jerome on drums and gail on vocals! sakto. and that the name would be "ben's birthday!" haha. thats nice, a combination from all the bands drawn into one! kinda like cambio if you may. or maybe the alcohols just gotten in out heads.



we did some challenge, empoy and black label with no chaser! then gail wanted some red horse which we passed around. we laughed and tripped...man it was so much fun...i really was touched when gail took shots in favor for my bday! fyi she stopped already. then came a time where gail had to go home so jerome, miki and joal took her home. then blue and i sat with the others and joined in the vodka circulation again. by the time jerome and joal arrived, my brain was already half-way to shutting down...



i couldn't remember much then but what i remember is that i sat on the sofa with arjel and sheila, then said to my friends that i'll just lie down for a while and thats it...also when my sis woke me up to go to my room and noticed jerome and joal already fled...sorry guys...then i took blue to where he'll sleep. next thing my eyes saw was the morning sun. man this weekend was the best.
chad || 8:49 PM

Saturday, February 04, 2006

020306

feb 3. i had my party here in my crib, loaded with lots of food and raining booze! i wanted this party to be one hell of a night 'cause this was already our last year in marist. i thought about the years to come and it looked like we won't be able to party like this anymore, so what the hell?! we would be in different schools already, different courses, different schedules and different lives.



just hours before the party, ken and jed went to my house already to help me and my sis with the cooking and preparations (we needed help badly 'cause my mom wasn't there to manage everything). then others came one by one, until my crib was jampacked with people! they were about thirty. including my beloved teachers, maal and ria plus neighbor friends dany, krisha and avick, and my sisters bf, regi.



during the party i couldn't put my head together 'cause it almost broke trying to entertain everyone. one will call me from outside, then someone will want to go to the cr, then my cell phone will ring, then someone will text me asking where my house is, then my landline will ring, my sis will call me, new guests will arrive, man! i didn't know is was gonna be that hard. then regi said to me "easy ka lang choy. this is your party, you should be having fun! it's your day, just go with the flow and let go of the problems." then suddenly i felt that heavy thing on my back disappear and i was relieved.



all of delay came, it's just that jenzi and james had to leave early. man i thought james wasn't serious of stopping his drinking but he is! he never took a shot from emperor even once that night. maybe his experience the last time gave him a phobia on alcoholic drinks, at least thats what he said...take a look at his pic in my previous entry "sabogish" whaha!



almost everyone felt soberness that night, but at least no one got drunk and stabbed someone with an icepick. we kept drinking until there were only about 15 of us, we consumed 6 long necks and 2 cases of red horse! me i didn't kept up with the circulation, i might have gotten really drunk! and then no one will clean the house and take charge no more.



the night was wild. we went on trippin' so ren, jude and marko stripped their clothes off (certainly not their underwear) in front of the camera! plus after a while we went outside the house to take a break from the drinking and we went on trippin again, we lied down the rocky cement that is the center road of my village and had this pic! one said we kinda looked like construction workers that got salvaged! haha.



i presumed about only 5 will sleep at my house but my calculations were dead wrong. 13 people spent the night here! so my sala was like a prison cell filled with half-naked people sleeping on top of one another. haha. man this was one hell of a night. thanks to everyone!
chad || 3:36 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Degradation

the hell has happened? my grades are all screwed up...some of my academics have gotten higher but i got an NI for a conduct...i was so confident that i was going to get high grades this quarter whilst doing the band thingy at school and outside, parties and hang-outs plus all that gimmicking but i was wrong. i felt my whole world fall apart knowing that everything i believed i was doing to be right wasn't. i promised my mom, dad and myself that i'll do better if i'm granted freedom to everything. no curfew and no questions asked when going out. i took advantage of it and gone in at a point where i couldn't get back anymore. i guess i'll be given a certain kind of punishment for this.

i got an NI 'cause my csep (teaching kids at public schools) moderator thought i was cutting class when there was attendance checking (it wasn't my duty then, but my attendance was still needed). i forgot all about csep 'cause my mind was concentrated on our concert. there was a lot of heavy work to be done. now its too late. and this is whats irritating: my moderator said i wouldn't have gotten an NI if i submitted her a letter and all this time she was waiting for me to give her one! dammit i don't remember her telling me that. its so frickin unfair! but theres still hope. the principal told me i can change my grade if i do the correct procedures before the last quarter ends. at least theres some considerations.

at least i've learned something...i believed i could handle all the work and pressure i got myself into and the problem was that i believed in myself too much. i won't let my extra-curricular activities interfere with school thingys anymore. even though i have a reason for having an NI, what i've done is still a mistake and whats done is done. i was careless and the sharks are gonna devour me for that. i guess our last gig will be at the variety show and then we'll keep it low until after the last quarterly exam. haha its weird, i'm beginning to be over serious about this. haha...
chad || 3:49 AM

Monday, January 23, 2006

Perfect Equilibrium

equilibrium was awesome. we actually made it happen! what was just a dream last year has now become a reality.



heres a pic before the concert, testing the equipment so that nothing wrong will happen during the band performances. actually, we didn't make sure the amps were okay, we just played around. so thats why we had problems in the early part. frickin' freshmen who borrowed it that day.



being a part of this concert was really great, all the hard work paid off. above is jerome and me on our sailing moment! heheh thanks for all who came. ella too, whos come all the way from fairview just to watch! pati narin si baqui and friends. gail, anna, ate pam, classmates, schoolmates, drinkmates, iskomates, everyone!



after the concert we went to joal's to drink away. woohoo! hopefully next year there would be another one. we'll be there for sure =p ps, im the guy holdin' the yellow guitar at the back. whaha.
chad || 9:55 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

Equilibrium Concert

marist's first and ever band and dance club concert is on its way! more than 20+ performances from the 2 clubs, either solo or combo! songs ranging from opm, rock, metal, reggae, techno, oldies and many more are included in the playlist!

it will be held on the marist high school covered court, january 20 (friday) at 6pm! tickets can be sold there foir 5 php (cheap huh? but its gonna be a hell of a performance!)
chad || 6:37 AM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Love at First Sight Ain't Right

first of all the concept is sympathetically pathetic, really. don't you think so too? maybe if you look inside yourself and consider the facts of reality about being with someone whom you really want can't be just in an image you just felt that theres something special between the both of you...you need to know the inner person first, see right through them clearly. it is only then you'll be able to make sure you can be together in harmony. consider time a part of the building process.
chad || 2:18 AM

Crappy Cramming

hell i've been sitting here in my butt drinking coffee wondering if i'll still be able to sleep after typing all of this crap-filled essays i call frustrating nonsenses from creative writing class...i should've done this during the holidays. i hate cramming. cramming is crap!
chad || 1:16 AM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Looking Back 2005

its already january 4 and its only now that i get to write about my christmas vacation. it was fun, just like any other stories that i've posted here. like every other christmas and new year there were so much food...so much that i couldn't stomach anymore. i drank, we drank, but mostly i drank alone. both xmas and new year my parents had to be asleep before 12 so it was only dinner that we got to celebrate. new year's eve my mom bought baileys and it was the first time i've had it. tasted like coffee with gin but the aftertaste is strong. so much for 700 bucks. we went to recto after christmas, bought some really cheap stuff there: dvds, watch, clothes, accessories, bags, anything! we also went to ukay-ukay near ust and it was the cheapest yet. 100 bucks for a turtle neck, jacket and long-sleeves! at least i got what i wanted this christmas. lots of new clothes.

looking back last year i saw myself being as innocent as the clouds...now i've changed from innocent to being more of a risk-taker. i don't know what this year will bring but i'm sure i'm gonna do a lot of things i've never done before...just as if you want to get something you've never had, then you've got to do something you've never done!
chad || 9:06 PM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Sabogish

yesterday was our xmas party already and then on to the xmas break! we planned on going to drews again but we decided not to 'cause it'll be hard on our pockets and it'll be very hard to go home from there, with us drunk and all. so ep reserved their place for the session!



but before we go there, aldrin, louie, antonio and i dropped by jollibee to settle the score with an employee there. i talked to the manager and said what happened. that earlier that day i bought 1 2 pc. burger steak with extra rice take out, but when i got home i only got 1 1 pc. steak with no extra rice! to my discontent i told to myself that i need to correct something i got wronged for. so the manager gave me another set of meal! haha it was great.



back to the main event, we went to ep's house and waited for him first 'cause he took charm home. then the session began! ep bought empoy and we made smb lights as the chaser. it was demonic. we got tipsy and sober already in the first few rounds! there was one time i was looking for my lighter so bad but i didn't realize it was just in front of me! man...haha i waited 'til almost all got sober and then bade goodbye to everybody. i gotta help aldrin and calma get a ride home 'cause their brains were for soup already that time! haha


chad || 10:52 AM

Monday, December 19, 2005

Wisdom Tooth

for the past few days i've been feeling something at the back of my mouth, i couldn't chew well and theres a bit pain too. it was just later when i realized that my wisdom tooth already started coming out! haha i hope it grows out immediately so i'll have it removed by the dentist =p
chad || 6:42 AM

Nica's Birthday

it was such a nice thing that nica invited us to her bash at the discovery suites last saturday. it was really fun but james couldn't come, good thing darren was there. we met some of the friends and classmates and came the time where those who gave presents must give a speech. i just said whatever i thought was sane, considering that heavy shot of vodka i drank came up to my head immediately after drinking it. we watched tv, socialized and hang out. when some left to go outside, darren and i had a one-on-one with el hombre! it was great tequilla, very addicting! haha we drank until we consumed the whole bottle, then opened another one! but nica sought we stop 'cause the alcohols getting the most of us already. i was surprised that darren drank that much, despite that hes not a drinker. my bro fetched us at around two, leaving nica, andrea, mica and anne. happy birthday nicks!
chad || 6:16 AM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Work, Work, Work!

i've been absent for three days now...and still i don't know if im gonna keep it up with all the new lessons and stuff. i had to work full-time for this video presentation my mom asked me to do so we'll have that extra income we need (also the income i need). its a hard decision, school or income for the price of 3 measly school days? actually i prefer school more 'cause i don't wanna miss trigo and physics! theres a risk of failing there. but since my mom asked me to, there'll be other ways. like, i have really smart friends who can help me cope up with the lastest discussions (lam mo na kung sino ka! haha hy!).

my editing is really getting into business ya? haha thats a good sign since i kinda expected this would eventually happen, its also one of my targeted professions as of the moment! besides being a lawyer, designer or entrepreneur i guess...so heres to me being lazy to hell and taking on school by not goin to school! haha
chad || 10:11 PM

Saturday, December 10, 2005

With Coalesce

saturday, dany invited me to play with coalesce somewhere in ayala heights (xmas party!) and i met the band! they're really nice people. we stayed and jammed at muriel's big mansion (hehe) and i met a lot of new people...it was really great although i felt some infatuation considering i was the most unknown guy there, and i'm not very used to socializing with new people...especially girls haha. nonetheless, i have no regrets going there =p
chad || 11:47 PM

Friday, December 09, 2005

Kups' Birthday

friday, it was the day james celebrates his bday (inum ulet! woohoo!) so i went there at around four. kenneth and i had to go to joal's house to get that extra empoy when we had tempoy last time. there was so much food, i really admire his mom's tasty cooking. we started the session with a couple of beers...lapad, then bought 2 more lapad...beer, and finally the long neck. it was great, i didnt throw up after takin all of that! haha. we played guitar recklessly, laughed with no reason at all and to hell with everything! i went home with blurry vision and a broken down mind, but i was still in control nyehe. happy bday kups!
chad || 6:03 AM

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Drew's Part 2

last thursday we went again to drew's (the bar where we stayed at after performing at miriam last dec. 2) and drank "jerbax" and "whats wrong is something the matter?" weird booze names huh? too bad not everyone who were there last time came. after some time bim suddenly poured vinegar at the shot glass and took a shot then passed it to us. joining in the trip all of us shot vinegar! didn't taste good of course! mehn we had to go home after i threw up under the katipunan flyover (courtesy of that frickin 2 peso fishball! sayang demet) and rode the jeep adding "bro!" to everything we said. it was a hell of a night haha =p
chad || 11:59 PM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Tempoy Dude!

i just got home from joal's, didn't know he was that rich hehe you have such a big house muhn! kenneth was there and we were supposed to compose a grad song but we weren't able to finish it 'cause nep and james weren't there to help. we had a few drinks...joal told the maid to buy empoy and some iced tea powder...and guess what she did next, she mixed the powder to the booze without water! haha so we called it tempoy! nyehehe corns +p but it was good haha, first time i saw kenneth sober. we wrote some lyrics and happily played while still sober. it was so perfect...then the next day we took a look at the lyrics and it was all wrong in terms of grammar...haha plus we forgot that nice melody we made...man iba talaga pag may tama! =p
chad || 7:54 AM

Friday, December 02, 2005

Bored to Hell

we just performed at miriam...with the same old glassjaw and thursday songs, kinda like the basic fundamentals of delay already haha. but we stank, each one of us flunked with a different kind of error, suot pa naman namin ung marist uniform. my g-efex batteries ran out and theres no amp for the 2nd guitar? we had to improvise. plus, i made that mistake again we did back at ardz...don't perform when you've got new strings installed! they'll just go out of tune immediately. salamat sa lahat ng support! dami pumunta haha. =p we went to this bar near mcdo katipunan after to drink some stuff, jerbaxx was it? haha cause its colored jerbaxx. it was so good, we plan on going back next wednesday! haha. now im sitting here in this cafe all alone, waiting for my sis until her dismissal at 9pm and its still 7:30! we gonna gimmick after. i guess life has its ups and downs...see ya
chad || 3:48 AM

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Self-Renewal

today i did everything that violated what i believed in before, at least a bit and thats one step closer...because i don't believe in that motto anymore which i worshipped. i decided to make a change, a self-renewal and transformation to be the very person i was afraid to be. the kind of person who doesn't let his being anxious and infatuations take over what he really wants to do and be as hard-faced as ever, the positive kind, that is. from now on i'll force myself to do what i really feel thats right.
chad || 11:01 AM

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Booze Overflowin!

the next day my sis told me we're gonna have inuman session at reg's that night...men after the soberness from the outing we're gonna drink again! thats life...make the most out of it whaha. i made the same mistake as last time, i drank again hungry! dammit, i got dizzy already with just a few shots from that toska...after the session we watched the exorcism of emily rose...nice movie!

the next morning we woke and watched the million dollar baby...man it was a really beautiful movie...sad, but beautiful...i can't talk about it here, it's a long story...

heheh...well, i guess thats it for vacation, pasukan na bukas!
chad || 5:42 AM

Friday, November 04, 2005

Booze Hit Hard

today we had our hapet practice for holy spirit's audition and we had to do it fast 'cause we still had to go to luke's outing after. i didn't ate breakfast and lunch...well, at least i ate a sandwich...but can you call that brunch? then while waiting for the other guy's we cooked some stuff (there were no one else in the house), james fried some hotdogs and tilapia (which wasn't cooked very well, bakla kase e whaha), then i prepared some rice...didn't know it was this fun to be da home boys.

next stop, flamingoes! out of all the 46 lukans we invited, only 9 came! maal didn't come, why ma'am? you were the one who initiated the outing...anyway, we got on the booze right away, bought a case of red horse grande and smokes for the smokers. aldrin joined in too (bago na motto ni mr. clean!) after the 6 grandes for the 7 people who drank, it hit me hard more than nep and the others...i now realized its not so fun to drink in an empty stomach...its not a pretty feeling, ive had a headache for hours, even after sleep, and i still have it now, slowly fading though...but you can't take the fun out of that.
chad || 11:12 AM

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Dance Night

same day as my previous entry, james and i had to go to our house to cool and take off that beer effect so we played burnout! at about six we went to his house so he can have his groomin' and then we walked straight on to marist! we were with aldrin and ronald. waiting at nok nok's, i saw that person again who defied the laws of attraction, he's just so beautiful that even i, a person who wouldn't give a damn about homos, like him! haha but don't go beyond there, i just admire the beauty and art.

anyway, we went inside, met the teachers, barkada peeps and we danced! i couldn't dance full-throttle i dunno why i wasn't in the mood...but the time came where i finally picked up the pace and slammed head on to everybody! technically, the music wasn't all that great so almost everybody just tripped on slammin'. then something unsuspecting happened...my fone wasn't where it was supposed to be!!! i searched, searched and searched...but i couldn't find it anymore...i told everybody...my friends, smb, classmates, teachers, everybody! i was so angry for bein' careless and then i saw everyone tryin' to help and workin' up that friends connections so that all will be aware MY fone is missing, i was so hopeless then and didn't expect for it to come back...i was really surprised that so much people cared for me...first experience haha. finally, for all that has happened, i got my fone back!!! nikko was the one who found it on the floor....yehes, a sign for me to know HE's really up there!

we left the premises early, the songs were getting more boring and my colleagues were already itching for that dj strawberry we bought. and then there was mac, james, bry, nep, aldrin and me...we ate tapsi at camp j! and rode on the way home...dissapointed.
chad || 1:56 AM

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Drunk at Da Mall

something really unusual happened a few hours ago at sta.lu...i was with james and we were supposed to meet 2 people there, 2 new friends we haven't met before. we saw them at the basement fastfood center beside the beer bar and guess what we did next...we drank beer of course! i treated them the first round and i didn't plan on buying the second round 'cause the beers too expensive! 40php per san mig light man.

anyway, after the first round, this weird old guy shows up and put 4 bottles of beer at our table plus beef tapa for pulutan! he said we reminded him of his 4 children, 2 boys and 2 girls and they all like to drink. we accepted his offer and gotten on with the second round! the old guy was acting weird 'cause every 5 mins. he'd go to our table to tell stories and stuff...weird stories and advices. but we just rode on 'cause anyways we had free beer! after the second round the old guy brought another batch for us but we couldn't take it anymore...james is already sober and the other 2 were...well, kinda dizzy. the old man now took back his beer back to his table full of beer bottles, looking disappointed. i was wondering though what was this man's agenda...i had that premonition again that something bads gonna happen so we went to the bowling area after and waited until the beer effects gone.

p.s. the beer there was kinda different 'cause james and i would usually consume up to three to four bottles first before we get sober but with two cold bottles?! we got drunk already...haha or maybe thats just because our stomachs was empty then!?
chad || 4:29 PM

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Screwdriver!

yeah, last night was frickin fun! or i mean, maybe just a couple of hours ago...hehe we had an inuman session at francis'! courtesy of omi's bday that is. everyone was there...migs, boyet, omi, kevin1, kevin2, jhopet, francis, neil and as. we had the screwdriver, and it was my first time...boyet mixed some red horse with gin and added a little sprite, it was great! never tasted alcohol this good...yeah...hehe after a couple of bottles some of us got wasted already, my vision started to blur and stuff, i also had a laughing trip from as's nature product...

all i could remember was that i played the guitar recklessly, petra said some embarrasing stuff to francis' sister (and said sorry all the time even though he wasn't talking to anyone), and that we had to walk to kevins house (which is very, very far) only to find out that we couldn't sleep there...we took a rest on the see-saw and after awhile neil brought us coffee! it was delicious. then we had to leave but petra couldn't handle it anymore so we just left him...sleeping in that lonely see-saw positioned on the streets! haha...we walked all the way from filinvest to the over-da-bakod shortcut in kingsville court...thats when i got home, i think it was 5 then? and the other 3 (as, omi and neil) went to some computer shop on marcos hi-way just to play dota! tindi nila...haha
chad || 8:07 AM

Friday, October 14, 2005

At Last

i can now rest from all the pressure, the work, school stuff, projects and those damn grades...today was the last day of exam and im blissful about it. im thankful too that i got to answer the exams right even though most of my trigo, filipino and physics quizzes have been flunked. yeah, inuman at migs bukas! haha =p
chad || 4:03 AM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

We Didn't Pass AA

i just received a text from someone at aa's pubcom telling me that we didn't pass for their variety show and thank you for participating...well, another lost again. i guess we aren't meant to play there 'cause we've been trying since the 2nd year! haha...its no use...but it was fun =p
chad || 12:29 AM

Friday, October 07, 2005

Delay Official Site Completed

our band's official site has now been completed! every section now has complete details in 'em. check it out here.
chad || 5:28 AM

We passed Miriam!

hey we passed the free-show auditions held at miriam last time! they said the fair will on dec. 1 to 3 and we'll most likely play on dec.2 =p whoohoo!
chad || 5:27 AM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Goodbye Tito Eddie

an uncle of mine from cebu just passed away, caused by a heart attack...although i really don't know uncle eddie, i still remember him when we were together in my childhood. way back in grade 1 when my family visited mabolo, cebu. i felt kinda sad 'cause mom made me do a video presentation derived from old pictires to be played in uncle eddie's wake. the pictures delivered different perspectives and highlights from his whole life. it was kinda touching to see all those pictures from his very childhood to when he was an old man. i kinda depicted his life without mom telling me.



this was the last time i remember i was with him, in the wedding of my aunt in cebu, i was the ring bearer! hehe. while looking at some more pictures...i had to think, am i treating my life as it won't go to waste? i thought of many things...and not later that i just wondered myself to sleep. goodbye tito eddie, we'll miss you.
chad || 7:53 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Long Day

it was the longest day today...hell yeah i'm tired, but let me tell what happened anyways. first thing at 9 in the morning i had to meet with the guys in masinag so we could get on with the aa auditions. when we got there, we left the very moment we finished playing faint of hearts by coheed and you're so last summer by tbs. i was happy then, i got to see some of my aa friends. dany, too bad the joint pictorial session of delay and coalesce was cancelled! haha. we rode a jeep designated to miriam for the free-show auditions and immediately signed up 'cause all of us have other appointments to go to. jed, aldrin and i were supposed to meet at rp to do our isp at 11am, but it was already 1pm! aldrin never replied to my texts...a sign of anger considering that i dissed them? nah, they're understanding people. while waiting for our turn i saw this guy marlowe again, man why do i always see this guy?! and ep saw his old friend from grade school, what a coincidence...nyaha. we were bummed and hungry, and there were still 8 bands ahead of us! we had to eat and i was concious about me prioritizing music first before academics...but what the hell?! mark and i went to the gym to buy donuts and witnessed the ust vs. miriam hs volleyball game...nice. we played our all-time favorites piano by glassjaw and paris in flames by thursday and dispered shortly after playing.

okay, i went to rp hoping that my groupmates are still there. luckily i saw them and got on with our isp. we bought the materials but we couldn't find the most significant item: the toy fan, so we searched the whole mall. we couldn't find any. we went to masinag and rempson, we couldn't find any. we searched the whole marikina palengke and of all the stores we checked, all were out of stock except for one! talk about lucky...okay, project now close to completion! only thing to do is assemble it. and so we did, at mcdo. its really funny if you think about it...it took us 6 hours to find the materials but we finished assembling it in less than 30 mins.! Dang...and so now i'm home updatin' this blog. i'm gonna sleep now, go somewhere else.
chad || 11:29 PM

Friday, September 16, 2005

FF7AC Released!

after 2 whole years of waiting, finally the frickin ff7ac movie production comes to a closure and now has been released! they are in stores now, but pirated (specifically greenhills). i'm currently downloading the movie from a torrent (now at 51% of 700 mb) but when it's done i'm gonna be selling them 80 php a copy in vcd format!



heres a brief review of the movie by loveffviiac from adventchildren.net: "Overall did Nomura accomplish what he set out to do? And did Square-Enix deliver it? "BIG YES!!" Advent Children did not fail to deliver and thank you S-E for inviting me back into the world I once loved. Nomura set out to do a masterpiece and a masterpiece it was, I don't think it can get any better then this. The production budget wasn't so high and the crew was cut short, however this movie proves that as long as great minds come together anything is possible. AC far surpasses The Spirits Within and if that doesn't say much then I'll say this. Advent Children far surpasses all the movies of 2005! This is coming from a crazed fan point of view of course. It even far surpass my expectation, because I expected it to be a good movie and in the end it sure passes that level. If you're a fan of Final Fantasy VII then this movie will not let you down. However if you're a complete newbie who have no knowledge of FFVII what so ever then you are lost in the wrong fantasy my friend. Go check out The Spirits Within instead you might like that a little better... or not... For all FFVII fans keep your hype up because this sequel is worth the wait."

chad || 4:47 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Theory of Balance

i just have this question, do you believe that in every bad act theres at least one good effect coming along with it? if you're answers a yes then you probably agree with me. even in the worst of things theres still one good effect. for example, like what james said "how about the act of the father raping his child?" well one good effect by that would be the satisfaction fulfilled for the people who longs for incest and those sadomasochists who wants to witness rape. now ain't that right? like i said at least theres one good thing. aww heck! what the hell, you can't contradict that statement 'cause what might be bad for you might be good for others and vice versa! so the possibilities are infinite 'cause the mind is so vast one cannot understand everything, man doesn't even have the capability to know god! how then can man understand the very purpose of god's creations? we are a cultured race locked within our own freedom and limited minds striving to what we call our belief which is very obfuscated because we base it on different points of view so that there is no absolution in everything, no ultimate goodness. that makes the unbalanced society of man but in the end its balanced because being unstable would mean equilibrium. there is good and there is bad. you get the concept?
chad || 6:51 AM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Strolling

today, darren and i were supposed to meet someone in rp but it was cancelled. now, thinking that the girl already told darren about it, i just slept at ease. then out of nowhere my phone beeped...its darren! he said "dude, i'm here in rp! text me when you arrive!" surprised about his message, I hastingly dressed up and fled to rp. after all, it was my fault for not telling him what i should have. anyway, we ate lunch (kfc again) and saw nica with her two friends. sitting there with nothing to do, we just watched the longest yard. after that we roamed the place looking for maristians (surprisingly, there were only few) and saw james and his frickin gayness! bwahaha



heres some shots of us three, darren had to leave so we just tripped around out of boredom. tammy was there, rinna, miki and his girlfriend, rozan, clarisse, ceriz, dugi, jenzi, ian, some of the guys, some schoolmates we don't know and side a! daymn its like theres a swaray everytime i go to rp...then we went home taxi style 'cause it was raining.
chad || 10:52 PM

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Welcome

heyy welcome to my new blog! i won't be updating the nostalgia blog anymore so this is where i'll post my new entries. =p
chad || 5:31 AM